I am jealous of pregnant women
I was having marital problems. I confessed my unfaithfulness to my husband. I
became pregnant. There was a question of who the father was. My husband said he
would not love another man’s baby. I felt to save my marriage, to prove my love,
I had an abortion.
I was numb emotionally. I cried the whole time. My husband sat in the car
with our two children the whole time. I felt physical pain during the procedure.
I just cried because of what I did and the price I was paying for what I did.
I hated myself. I sinned the unforgivable sin. I knew that I was going to
hell when I died. I couldn’t believe my husband would allow the abortion and I
felt I deserved any pain and punishment that I felt. My husband got a vasectomy.
He told me there would be no question anymore. To retaliate I got a tubal
ligation. I became very irresponsible. My life went down ever since.
It has been 12 years since my abortion. I never did anything positive to deal
with it until now. I had a nervous breakdown. I was in the hospital for two
weeks, when a counselor suggested the P.A.T.H. program. I could hardly wait for
the chance to begin.
I realized I didn’t know myself and what I was capable of doing. I felt
unworthy as a human being to experience any kind of or joy or happiness. I
am jealous of pregnant women. I am just learning how my abortion has affected my